Last week, I started a new series called “Friends, Waffles, and Work” because I felt overwhelmed–which, honestly, is just something that happens when you are extremely sensitive and easily stressed.
Despite the challenges I am currently facing, I know it is not my circumstances that cause so much stress: it is my own negativity. I set incredibly high standards for myself and my future, and it’s impossible to live up to. With every rejection e-mail or frustrating workday, I sink under the incredible weight of failure.
I hate the waiting game. I expect progress to happen overnight. I run away from opportunities because it’s not what I want. And if God loved me so much, he’d just give me what I want, right?
Wrong. So, so wrong.
This series is part of my personal effort to be at peace with the present. To trust God with everything He has given me. To stop calling myself a failure and remember that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. To choose joy, just like I have chosen love.
It isn’t easy–but the things that are worth it rarely are.
Happy little thoughts:
Coffee dates. Re-watching How I Met Your Mother. Writing stories based on “Shake It Out” by Florence + The Machine (learn more here!). Borrowing books. Bonding with customers over Harry Potter, tattoos, Disney, and Hamilton. Yoga with Adriene. New friends. Old friends. Applying to volunteer at an animal shelter. Babysitting, and the made-up Monopoly rules that come with it. Beautiful spring weather. Drew telling me that he’ll call me out when I start being negative. Writers who inspire me. Conversations about God’s love and never-ending grace. Harriet Tubman on the $10 bill, and Lin-Manuel Miranda winning the Pulitzer Prize. E-mails from my dad. Pope Francis being awesome. Banning the idea of ‘should’ from my mind. Unexpected wisdom from tea tags: “Love is an infinite victory.” The love and support from all the amazing people in my life.
How has your week been? What are you grateful for?